Training was fine. Tough as usual. Seeing the seniors train so hard, I didn't want to slack either. Sweated ALOT and muscles cramped like crazy, but it felt wonderful(: Knees went haywire though, so I popped calcium and glucosaumine pills and I gonna continue popping them till I have strong knees!

My dad's theory is that I'm gaining weight ON TOP so my knees can't take my FAT HEAVY WEIGHT, so it gives way, which results in what I am today. Kinda make reason since I ballooned 9kg in year one, and am still ballooning today. I wanna lose weight ah ><

Our class got 2nd for the NE environmental thing. Great thanks to the two amandas who put in super lots of effort in the costume and to the manymanymany people who folded the stars for my necklace(: My mum just came in and commented it was pretty; she even wanted to wear it to work! crazy mum ><
Anyways, it was kind of a good experience, though my heart palpitated till it almost dropped out. I was damn afraid I would fall and would become malulululu. I didn't, luckily, though there was still embarrassment):

Stoning in front of the computer with my wet hair and swollen eyes; I must look disastrous now.
Was thinking about much stuffs when I was showering and damn, many thoughts just flooded my mind and I was overwhelmed with emotions. It's so unexplainable and I feel so fake. If I can actually feel that terrible, how did I even manage to seem so happy-go-lucky in school? Was it a facade, or just a side of me I don't wish to let people see? I did wonder about this before but I realised I ain't hiding anything. Maybe I should just exhaust myself till I don't even have enough time to think about shitass things like that.