when everything falls apart and you can never ever pick the pieces up again, you wish there was something to make life worth living for.

Did much reflection today. Had a bad quarrel when I reached home, so things didn't really turn well for me. Sat down and did some reflection on my diary before mugging and it felt really good to let off steam. Steam or tears, they're the same I guess. Water in different states lol.

I guess the bottom line is, only after losing some then will you appreciate what you gain thereafter. And I think it's really true. We always wish for something non-existent, or we'll try improving the way things are. Never satisfied with status quo, we constantly search for things to make life less mundane but we'll never realise that things are fine the way they are, right?
I don't know, I think I really grew up these 3 years, and that mental change is scaring me. Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be laid-back and nonchalant about the surrounding changes, because the feeling of being carefree and beholden to nothing is something worth seeking for.


Andand, I'm really in awe of your dedication. Didn't really realise it until today when I thought of it. It gonna spur me on to achieve even more; things that I once thought were impossible. But really, that was one motivation I needed manz, although I don't think you even know it.

Footprints left and erased, what's left behind?