9:39 PM | Saturday, April 24, 2010 | Link
apathy
Danzage was fine.
It was a great way to relax but after that tired night, it kinda sucked to return back to reality and face the mountains and piles of work.
And I think dancing is so much harder than bball.
Andand, modern dance seems harder than hiphop since it's so graceful and everything, but is it me or it just has the capability to make you space out for a few seconds?

Met Qi and Chan at tampines for dinner. Ate at pastamania.
And while Qi went to pee me and Chan had fun in the baby changing room. There were people staring at us but I don't care.

Really missed the days when I was younger when things came by so easily. Now, you have to fight or argue for things to have your way.












Cold war Talk today was okay. Surprisingly, I had a good sleep.


Seriously, don't take my indifference and easygoingness as nonchalance and submission, and begin treating me as an easy target for your manipulative ways with my emotions. Just because you claim you can't do it doesn't mean that I've to be your lackey whom you call at your whims and fancy. I'm always the last jigsaw piece to fit in the puzzle isn't it? To just blend in anywhere when everyone is comfortable with where they are, and there's this empty spot that no one is willing to fill up. It's that convenient.

Trying to make the best out of every situation to satisfy everyone does not mean I'm exactly happy with whatever I'm doing, nor do I VOLUNTEER, beg or pray every night to be caught in the kind of situation when I've to satisfy the whole world but myself

I was really pissed off, annoyed and disappointed. I'm not obligated to do anything, but there is this part of me who feels like it wouldn't hurt to help. I was really thrilled and brimming with pride when people around me were happy. Yes it didn't hurt when everything was smooth-sailing, but it pains me when everything is taken for granted.

The speed that everything just shot out of your mouth surprised me, or should I not be surprised when at times you fail to note my annoyance and continue with your inappropriate comments at that point of time. Sarcasm has its limits. Nevermind, I shall continue to be the accommodating one.

I thought I would feel apathetic now and everything would resume back to normal but it didn't.. I didn't know I would feel so strongly about this but I'm glad that after today, I know I've more ego and resolve than I thought i did.
And surprisingly, I don't and didn't regret saying
Fuck You