A short post before I meet Rae for sushi before training....
My internet is giving me a headache because it's really screwed!

These few weeks passed really fast cos I've been working my ass off in an attempt to earn money. Frankly speaking I don't think it's the actual reason, I just wanna feel tired and I like the feeling when time passes faster than expected.
However yesterday was like my limit. Felt really exhausted and anyone could tell it simply with one look. Knocked off earlier and ate Mr Bean's ice cream to feel better.
Hate these kind of nights! Not to forget that Sengkang is gloomy and ulu at night.

Currently in a mood where every song is annoying and noisy. ARGH what's wrong with me!

Working has really let me realise that there is more to this world, and that the society which was ideal and complete was just a figment of my imagination. Over-optimism on my part, you can say. The harsh fact that I cannot treat everyone the same and not everyone will see that there is nothing more behind every action - that they're just pure intentions, has slapped across my face. I'm finally awake.
Damn you, thanks for making me feel cheap with just those few words. BASTARD.
Though I gonna take more caution, I still gonna be the way I am. Don't see what's wrong with treating both genders the same way. Only idiots will think like you.
But of course, you meet the fun and amicable people who can make you laugh every 3 sentences they say!

Love.Gives Me Hope was what caused me to stay up till 3 this morning. Finished reading 100 pages of it before deciding that it was simply too much and I should not sleep any later.
It's really cool how love can go a long way. Platonic love, kinship, love in a couple.... everything. Sometimes these fairytale-like stories which seem cliche to some, make you wonder how it is to feel so blissful.
Though we always have to remind ourselves that those moments which can make your heart stop for few seconds, can really torture at times. Seconds can seem like hours, or maybe years.

Still, that doesn't stop many from dreaming


Using my dad's iPhone to type this and i guess I will retract the statement that iPhone and iPod touches are overrated. It's really convenient, so no wonder at least 2 in evey row of people in the mrt own one of the apple products. Shall stop saying more of the good points, if not I'll sound like those freaks obsessed over apple products. And of course as you can see, i observe people a lot. So it was kinda hard to kick the habit of glancing at people at pasirris. You know, the fear of getting slashed. But on the other hand, there's another saying that security was stepped up after the incident, so it's definitely up to you to decide which version of thinking you want (:

Class chalet was over, like 8 hours ago, and the feeling that we wouldn't be a class again sorta dawned upon at macs this morning. I did not have any expectations when I entered the class, so I was pleasantly surprised at the amount of fun I had. Although others probably wonder what them helm we can possibly do with a class of 35 girls and 1 guy, I've grown a lil attached to the class. Mane not to the extreme extent of me having withdrawal symptoms (I was never the kind to experience such exaggeration anyway), there were many little fun things which happened along the journey of 2 years which were worth reminiscing, definitely.

Saw kaiping twice at downtown, she didn't really change much, though she commented that she could hardly recognize me. Didn't really talked to her, but there was a brief awkwardness I felt, wonder of it was the same for her. People really do change. It's amazing how relationships work. There is no definite way of explaining the mechanics of human relations, because nobody communicates in the exact manner with someone else.

A little beat now cos I just came back from my night shift. Mouth's feelin uncomfortable cos I think im falling sick. Oh man there's dmovement auditions tomorrow, don't let me be ill! I hope things will go smoothly Mann, dont wanna experience another round of rejection /:

Working is realllly fun, and clearing the bloody disgusting dishes made mr realise that many things are more complicated than it actually seems. There's newfound respect for the cleaners at hawker centers because of their high efficiency, and definitely not forgetting the horrible dining etiquette of singaporeans at hawker centers!

Ohnknny lips are stinging really badly now. Damn. What happens when thick fugly lips turn swollen? You get red thick bacon.


Maybe I should start using tweets as my titles. Then I need not think so hard for a suitable title.

Worst day of my life. I swear this feels even worse than anything else. If a breakup were to feel 10x worse than this, I gonna protect myself in a cocoon and NEVER ever get into a relationship at all. Bloody hell.

Maybe it's just a momentary thing and I'm probably blowing things out of proportion, like what I always do.
I don't know, it's disappointment after letting my expectations go higher, and it's 2x of that WOW.

Tomorrow's chinese and the environmental thing. Can't wait to get over everything, especially the latter, before I can concentrate on starting work, and begin completing the things I've on my to-do list! And of course to begin looking forward to my family trip and class chalet and bball chalet and outings and fun and hell lot of stuff that are definitely ZILLIONS time better than the shit now.

Damn.
But I told myself today that whenever I were to feel any shitty, after a soyabean icecream, a bar of choco and a long cold bath, things have to get better. Or at least force it upon myself.

I sound like my favourite pet dog just died or something, but nah.
Maybe cos the house feels more empty cos my sis and mum are overseas. Miss them AHH.

Maybe it's true that when people are gone, you miss them.


LOL i googled ridiculous news reports, hoping to find stuff to cheer me up and saw a vid on a woman caught selling penis-like straws to kids. WTH.

Off to watch magic shows again. I think I like them cos they make the impossible seem possible, and the brief amazement allows me some room for escape.


-i hate rejections