11:29 PM | Thursday, February 24, 2011 | Link
Dead, but alive
Just back from training but don't really feel like sleeping yet. Tomorrow gonna be a horrid day.
Training was... tiring mentally and physically. If not for the match we played before that, it could have been much worse. I'm unsure of the kind of mentality I should have for training these days. The thought of it unnerves me, damn.

Typing this while waiting for my maggee mee to cook. I'm wondering what's wrong with me these days. Appetite comes and go, and the worse thing is when I FINALLY feel like eating, the canteen is either full of people or the stalls are closed. Say for today, was suddenly feeling hungry before math, but ended up having potato wedges only.
Nonono I ain't anoe, just that I hope the important things I hold very dear, will not change or make a drastic u-turn. As much as I would like people to see the strong front I always project, I don't think my heart can take it.

School has been just mundane these days I guess. IT's the same routine, and I'm definitely studying more than the past. Maybe it's more tiring at the end and the start of the day, but every day is probably more fulfilling (:
Although I wish studying could be less monotonous.

Tests were screwed, but I don't feel as much as the rest. What for, making yourself so miserable. It's dumb when you keep clinging onto the past, refusing to let go and move on. Easy as it may seem, it's probably the hardest thing to do, but once we succeed, we'll become stronger.

Just had a thought. There are so many things in life which I've yet to experience and despite the fear of facing setbacks, there is this part of me who wants the excitement of novelty. Yet to care about somemore more than a friend, yet to find someone really inspiring, yet to understand how it is like to feel like the world has just come crashing down, yet to have a reason to let my ego and pride down for once... so many yets, but I'm probably too chicken for them.