Meng: heheh dedication to you huhs! (: you looked super tired but always remember to stay strong(: we live so close to each other; you at punggol and me at sengkang, so you can actually always run to my house and call for me, considering the fact that you love running alot for no reason hahas. stay happy girl(:
Richard: LOL. lidat also can. no one asked you to take the literal meaning of fair lols. and hmm, I've shrunk quite alot already.
Chan: (: thanks for chatting with me like super damndamn long. 2 hours! about everything under the sun, including uhms, you know it. And I seriously STUNNED when I saw his age. EFF. hahas. there goes the slim little hope I had! ><
Spiky-hair guy: wow. you're sharp. hahas changed already, thanks(:
Qihui: harlos(: hahas finally tagged huhs. goodlucks for cdivcdivcdiv(:
Guest: thanks(:
Ben: lol. POOT. hehe blogged alr(:


Manymany things happened this week, ever since the school reopened. To think of it, I've actually survived the week of turmoil and fatigue, although I tried my best to sleep longer and have better quality sleep.

The junior's match was wonderful. They played super well and I felt sosososohappy watching them improve and pawn the opponents(: Nevertheless, they deserved it, cos those were the fruits of their labour. :D

Met up with Meng, Khoon and Jas on friday after French. Caught up on alotalot of stuffs and gossiped about almost everything under the sun. It's so nice gathering with long-lost friends whom I've lost touch with (for like 5 months?) It's nice to have a social circle outside school cos you know you can count on them whenever you feel like spilling out your problems but not really letting them know who the exact person is.
HEH.
Anyways, the laughters and joy made me miss primary school once more. Those times when studies was actually on the top of our priority list. Remember those rebellious times when we ganged up against a new teacher and (he even requested to not teach our school the following year)! Getting what we wanted and proving that he was wrong when he really was (although there were times when he was, but we won nevertheless(: ) really made us bond as an entire class. The entire incident made the teachers and principal take notice of us, and they came and gave uncountable lectures....

AHH. reminiscence is so nice.
Note to Chan: see, it's reflection, not emotional thoughts!(:

Hmmm I've a picture of a super nice cake which made my day on 18.03.09. That was how long ago I wanted to blog.
There's cappucino cream in the cheese and the base is made up of a thick layer of chocolate(:




Yesterday was mugmugmug day by myself at Hougang KFC. There was much emotional turmoil for me before that but after chatting with laoshi and chan, I felt much better. currently, I'm feeling nothing already cos I need to mugmugmug later again! D:

Seriously, I wonder what's your problem. If I made you feel uncomfortable, YOU TELL ME, instead of going around telling people how fake I am. If being who I am was wrong to start with because it made you feel that I seemed too nice (which you obviously felt that it was different from the real evil horrible unfriendly me), then I really have nothing to say. I thought you knew that the world is made up of many types of people and everyone cannot possibly live up to your low standards... You want people to be the same as you; the two-faced, jealous monster who stands on her toes and pin-points every little insignificant mistake made by others. You made me realise that it doesn't pay to put in effort in fixing broken relationships. You wanted to know what was wrong so I told you. You broached the topic first when I already decided to close the messenger window. You seemed genuine, so i fell for it. I struggled alotalot that night when I pondered about how I would bring my points effectively across to you without being disturbingly insensitive to your emotions. Clinging onto the fact that everyone deserves a chance and the thought that maybe we were too one-sided and unforgiving proved how stupid I was. Everyone was questioning my action and asked me if I was just plain dumb or stupid, but I just shrugged those questioning and disapproving looks off with a smile and thought that you might prove them wrong one day and then, I would be proven right. Those were the naive thoughts I had, until now.

I can't say I hate you cos I don't feel any hatred, so I not gonna do the simplest way to vent my supposed anger by going around bitching about you. It isn't me, and I won't change because I don't think it'll make me feel any better. Since I might still glance at you one more time if you were to cry or be in pain, which probably means that I might get disappointed once again if I were to ever walk over and ask if you're fine, I gonna distance myself from you. You're just this dangerous prick which goes around bursting people's bubbles, and even if you don't manage to do so, you'll still cause pain. But you know what, you won't be able to understand emotions such as sadness, embarrassment and true joy and happiness.
Thanks to you, my belief that helping people despite the trouble I go through will make me feel happy in the end, was proven wrong.

I know I must always look at things from a different perspectives, so I should see the whole incident in different light, to make myself feel better.
my heart is damaged damaged damaged.
how are you going to fix it fix it fix it.
simple.
I must thank you for teaching me to become stronger and how to cope with disappointment. So if one day I realise that I failed a test or I realised I've been badmouthed again, i would feel NOTHING.
Thanks alot, because I've attended an invaluable life lesson, which came by free-of-charge. You didn't charge me a fee, and for that, I gonna thank you for being so generous because you took away other things such as my time and effort, which worthed more than money.
And you know what, you're a joke.


woah, I typed for more than 45 minutes already. off my time target manz.
Next week gonna be maths common test and french control. GOODLUCKS everybody(: don't let your efforts go to waste.
i just remembered that there's tingxie tomorrow but I don't have the chinese textbook with me. argh. my tingxie used to be super good in primary school so I gonna continue with the record hahas.


Woke up at 6:30 because I couldn't sleep and was sneezing like some mad horse that I couldn't stand it. Switched on itunes, plugged in my earpieces and sat alone in the hall doing my stuffs. It was quiet and nice. I think next time, I should just go to some quiet place like the airport or a park; it would be nice(:

Yesterday was a wonderful day hehs. Although it was celebrated by spending a the afternoon with chan at the airport mugging and with meng, it was happy and fulfilling hahas(:
Received many happy-birthday wishes and felt loved. Hahas, I always thought nothing of birthdays, but just treated it as a passing day. Well, I guess I gonna start jotting down people's birthdays on the birthday alarm on my computer, so I won't forget anyone's birthday anymore :D

Thanks to these wonderful people who made my day(s):
Pressies: Chan, Meng, Li Hui, Nicholas, Dad, Mum, Wei Hao, aunt&uncle
Sms: Jiaqi, Sylvia, Aunt Jennifer, Richard, Jiajian, Sarah, Amanda (Lim), Nigelng, Jing Mei, Chantalle, Richmond, Jacob, Jas, Khoon
Facebook: Matthew, Amanda (Cheng), Shen Hao, Janelle, Rennie
MSN: Qi Hui, Jia Min, Da Rachel, Nicole (ng), Melissa, Stephen, Calvin (Chan), Ben, Crystal, Hung Hui, Rene, Fraser
Blog: See Hian, Ann

hahas, I bet I didn't leave out ANYONE (:
Qi: hehs, you were the first one to msg me. Touched yeps(: My third year in DHS and we got closer like last year, surprisingly. It's like we are from two different worlds but yet, we can talk so much :D

Meimeipig: hahas seriously, I GRINNED when I read your message on the bus. Did you know how spastic that was??!! Hahas, haven't seen you for like 5 days I think. I hope you didn't grow FATTER lols.
>> Hi nanapig you're a 老猪 already 15 years old. Lol k I wish that the old pig will be slimmer and prettier and give some knowledge to me. Happy birthday to the awesome pig of mine. Love you!
LOL

And I didn't mean duffel bag or something. I think i mean this: ahahas


Chan: hahas I told you already right. I was touched when you passed me the chocolate cake with the relatively long postcard yesterday(: Hmmm, I shall go google the image

Yeps there you go. Ah, it melted but I finished ALL OF IT nevertheless(: Sorry for pangseh-ing you yea; wanted to attend my primary school gathering (which was just like 6 people). Glad you played ball in the end hehs. :D

Meng:

Ah it's a little dim but anws, thanks for this super cute bear. When you told me you wrote on the envelope because inside were all memories, I immediately went to open the envelope cos I thought you put photographs inside. hahas, then I read the letter again and AH, it was so sweet(:
yeps, filled to the brim are our memories of the 5-years friendship and I believe, a friendship that will last longer than what we expected. Ah, I miss arguing with you D: I know I'll always pawn you when we argue in English and you'll own me like crap when you start bombarding me with chinese idioms which I can hardlly understand!

Geez, I'm getting emotional.


Hahas I got a virtual birthday cake! Thanks Ben(: Told you I would blog about it hahaas. so C.O.L.O.U.R.F.U.L.

Jacob: hahas it was super heartwarming when you asked me what was missing in my life hehs(: I've loads of things which are missing in my life so you probably won't be able to gimme all of them right! And I was joking about the life-size bear although I really would like one hahas. Like how would you be able to bring the life-size bear from HONGKONG! imagine seeing a guy hugging one big fat bear. So gay :/

Jas: hehehs :D have been super long since I heard from you yea. How's life?
Khoon: lols. you really scared me; I was like: EH KHOON FORGOT MY BDAE. Aiya, but I can't blame you you knows, considering that I forgot yours in two consecutive years. Nevermind, i swear i won't forget yours NEXT YEAR :D Take care of your body lahs, baika ><

Okays, i gonna start mugging alreadys. Have been spending the last 2 days having fun with my lappy that i didn't do anything constructive. Gonna go to the national library to mugmugmug and do research

ANDAND, can you people tell me your bdays? I wanna jot them down on this computer's birthday alarm(: shant be a meano


Shopped the entire afternoon yesterday at Suntec, searching for my birthday present. I ended up with a LG R410 lappy which looks like this:


Thanks DAD(: for actually going to the IT show on Saturday to squeeze with the people and hardly being able to see anything and for spending soooo much money on my unnecessary materialistic wants(:
Hahs, I was joking that since he got me a portable hard disk last year and a lappy this year, my birthday present next year should be more expensive right? a house or a convertible maybe? :D
Nahs, shan't be greedy. Content is a virtue. It's usually easier said than done though

The way the whole payment for the laptop sucked. Queued up to pay, then queued for another hour to collect the laptop. It took a long time because they had to upgrade the ram from 2gb to 4gb (for free^^).
I queued for half an hour, then gave up and went to sleep on the staircase nearby. By the time I woke up, my lappy was collected yay(:

I was telling my mum that it feels so weird to think that I'm actually 15 already. 15 is this age which is in the middle of being a child and a teenager. Any older would be deem as old and any younger would be seen as a growing stage. That's how I perceive it, and it definitely scares me when I think of the responsibilities I've to shoulder and the goals I've to attain in the future. I hate being burdened and my carefree take on many stuffs gonna put me in the disadvantage.

Last tuesday, my aunt, uncle and cousin came down to celebrate my birthday. As I just came back from training, I had to take the pictures in my jersey cos they had to rush home.... So weird hehs :/ My mum bought the cake from Secret Recipe when she went to Johor to shop. It looked plain but inside, it was creamy and crunchy with nuts. I prefer the chocolate cake though. Creamy and THICK chocolate oozing out after every bite. AHHH.








Koped pictures at Qihui's BBQ Party from Melissa's blog. Rachel looks funny in the candid shots man









Rachel, Rene and Weiwen were terribly wet. I was contemplating if I should join them because I my knee hurt like shit when it comes into contact with water. But after Yvonne (the super high GPA woman) told me that the chlorine in the swimming pool won't do any harm since it is used to kill germs in the swimming pool, I JUMPED IN AND HAD FUN :D
Did "sit-ups" in the pool and did some 僵尸 walk.

Ate alotalotalot of food,thanks to the juniors who stood before the tremendous heat to barbecue the food. Hahas, their dajie will help them see if the food is already cooked anot. Chatted with the juniors, cut the cake and basically, that was it.

HAHAS(:




Heys birthday girl, smile more often kays. Don't stay so solemn all the times, though it's good to be reflective and ponder over many things in life. It's your birthday, so let go and have fun(:
Hahas, hope you enjoy the book that our whole team got for you. According to Rachel, you'll enjoy it since it's dog-related, though the dog will curse and go eff-ing around and scolding people sons of bitches (it makes sense anyways)


It was heartwarming to see your get together and being a team, overcoming the barriers and cliques your had last year(: All the best for cdivs people

Ahh, have been spending an hour on this post, and doing I-don't-know-what. shall go lunch. MUGMUG with Chan tomorrow. :D
I don't get the LA Assignment, how?


My knee hurts after putting the medicated oil. It felt as if thousands of needles were thrown at the injury. Now it looks horrible. Ah. Twisted the left knee and sprained over it today. Turned out that the twist twisted the heavy knee back :/ This spells trouble but ohwell, I'll just see what happens.

Went to Qihui's bbq party today(: It was kind of heartwarming when everyone was having fun(: I hope the book is nice. Rachel's taste can't be that bad hehs.

Mr Chua left already. I don't really feel anything but he's a nice teacher nevertheless. Gave us chocos but he would have been nicer if there weren't any history assignment. Argh.

Group pic:


I just realised that my ipod battery's lifespan is decreasing. It gets out of batt super fast. Shit. I don't wanna restore it when I send it to APPLE! prft. damn.

This week was a week where I felt many different emotions. After teamtalking the sec ones, I thought everything would be better in the future when the barrier between the sec 1s and their seniors were removed. However, after the talk with coach and laoshi, that proved to be wishful thinking of mine. Felt so complicated when I tried looking in so many people's points of view but yet, I understood how it felt.
Spent some time thinking but decided to let it go and do more constructive stuffs since I couldn't help anyways.

Gonna mug with chan for two consecutive days :D I gonna be in the muggy mood soon and complete my work quickly so I can sleep for the last few days of the holidays :/
Let's hope I'll succeed(:

Just chatted with Khoon and I suddenly missed the gang ahs. She's meeting meng in nats so all the best manz(: Ahh I miss you people):

I need to hug something now manz. I really wish I had a cuddly bear. Now I'm reduced to hugging my pillow. How sad.

Gonna go to the temple early in the morning tomorrow and join my dad for the I.T. show at Expo. Haven't been catching up on the technology nowadays.
It's 12:45 now. gonna turn in.
life is so mundane.


It's getting late now. 11:15. I just thought of this little thought i had and was wondering if I could complete it one day. Imagine sitting in the middle of a basketball court, in the middle of the night, hearing the basketball bounce. It's kind of nice hehs. I gonna earn loads of money to build a bigbigbig house next time :D

Mugged with chan and jialing at T3 today. It was constructive(: Finished my maths assignments. then gossiped abit(: I realised I didn't know MANYMANY things which occurred in school. And I learnt that people can actually be complicated and build so many facades to deceive.

I'm feeling tired nowadays. I ALWAYS FEEL TIRED.
I think no matter how much I sleep, I'll feel as tired and dead as usual. Geez, I need something interesting to perk me up ><

Training on saturday was kind of dumb, considering that we were there for 3 hours, only to play for around half an hour? Sigh. If only appreciation was shown, I think everybody would have felt better.

gonna go sleep now. aw, i just remembered. I held onto an uncle's hair when I was grabbing the seat for support before alighting, when the car suddenly jerked. Ha, the uncle was cursing something which I didn't understand, and it was loud, cos I could hear him through my earpiece.
SORRY LAH haiiyo. I hope your hair implants/hair didn't drop off ><
Didn't really mean it whatz. And plus, I've poor balancing skills heh.

Oh, and I thought of another thing too. There was this couple asking me for directions to take bus 27. Then I was telling my mum that I seem to have this kind-look whereby people will ask me for directions and stuffs (might be a wrong decision though). There was this lady who passed me her phone to switch off the alarm which kept ringing. And it seemed that there was actually no alarm hahas. She was least afraid that I would run off with her phone manz.


When I was travelling on bus 158, with music blasting in my ears and glancing at the relatively old HDB flats, I had a different emotion which I never had before. It's beyond description and it's kind of stupid to say that I didn't feel like that in the past when I took 158. In the past, the time was spent chatting with jingmei or something. Or sleeping, probably

Ahh, and the sky was surprisingly nice for an afternoon. Sunny, but not humid either. It was a nice balance and I felt like going to the beach. Enjoying the breeze brushing across your face and experiencing the breathtaking sunset. It has been a long time since I went to a nice non-polluted beach and I've never ever waited for a sunset before. Witnessed a sunset in Taiwan before, but it was after climbing a super long hill and realising that the sun was partially covered by clouds, so it wasn't that pretty anymore): That was probably the dumbest thing ever. The nicest beach I went to was the one in Australia. It was super pretty; the sky was crystal clear and the sand was so fine.

Today was a super fast day, which started with Chinese Test. Kind of horrible :X Then it was ACE, and we watched the film Hotel Rwanda. It is frightening to witness how humans destroy and murder each other so viciously without even feeling any sense of guilt or remorse.

It rained just now. Terrible weather nowadays D: